Archive for April, 2005

My first permanent job in life

I'm reading a CCM book called 豬頭皮的開天窗 in Towngas Avenue.

This is the tenth day for my permanent time job in life. Though Carrie said it seems that I’ve worked there for one year, not one week.

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Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

I got a handful of memories to be erased. Maybe the list is much longer than I expected. Those memories are painful and depressing. Those are the memories I try very hard to memorize in past, to write down as details as possible, to take photos, sometimes, to die for, just like using knife to cut oneself for the shocking painful feeling.

The past stories are as beautiful as poems.
The feelings are eternal.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

CU JOEL AND CLEMENTINE HOLD HANDS AS THEY LIE ON BACKS ON FROZEN RIVER.

Joel: I could die right now, Clem. I'm just so happy.

MCU THEIR HEADS AS THEY LIE ON THE RIVER. SHE TURNS TO HIM, THEN PUTS HER HEAD ON HIM.

Joel: I've never felt that before.

When bad days come, the color changes from red to blue. Relationships are dynamic, while both of us are in the system. Our hearts filled up with blue, and we paint using darker blue. Geography lesson in high school taught me the term “feedback mechanism”. On the other side of love, there left a mess. We break down, fall apart, and we break up eventually.

We have two options: to retain and repeat the old memories, or erase them completely.

I got a handful of memories to be erased. Without getting a brand new canvas, I choose to erase everything on the old one. Everything, got to be everything, cause there’s left no memory worthy to stay in my delicate and fragile body.

We hope we’ll become new people next day when we wake up in bed.

A U.S. company Lacuna Inc. provides such service – to erase the personal memories of past loved ones. Do you want to have a try?

Is it painful to erase memories? Does it hurt our brain?
Does it hurt our heart?

JOEL AND CLEMENTINE FACING EACH OTHER.

Joel: I can't see anything that I don't like about you.

Clementine: But you will.

Joel: Right now I can't.

Clementine: But you will. You know, you will think of things. And I'll get bored with you and feel trapped, because that's what happens with me.

JOEL SHRUGS.

Joel: Okay.

CLEMENTINE NODS.

JOEL SMILES.

Clementine: Okay.

CLEMENTINE CRIES, THEN LAUGHS.

Clementine: Okay.

Joel: Okay.

CLEMENTINE AND JOEL LAUGH.

Or we can have breakthrough?

 

Ready

在三月繁忙的日子裏,腦裏常常浮現想寫的文章題材,卻苦無心力時間下筆,只能登入這兒留下草稿題目。

三月十日,我記下了這個題目:Ready。

那時候,我以為自己預備好了。
兩天後,有一問題開始縈繞著我,我才知道我還未預備好。

我把那些東西暫時放下了,繼續忙我的工作、我的生活。
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