Dream a little dream

I can’t stop writing passages about friends, the lovely little gifts from heaven, especially in days feeling blue.

My eyes are red and swollen, and I phone my friend I. I ask her out for dinner, while having recording session starts at 20:00. She says yes, even we can’t dine out together eventually.

My friend Y MSNs me on Saturday. After confirming time and venue we’ll meet, I tell her I’m sad. She says we can talk later, even we don’t have time to do so.

My friend J Yahoo! me at Sunday’s midnight. He is a guy. He calls himself an opportunitist. He gives me tons of advices, just like what he’ll do in past. Thanks for your advices when my brain cannot function well. However, I really want to let you know I’m really depressed.

My friend S Yahoo! me. He tells me about his brand new idea of composing. After knowing I’m still taking medication, he asks me to stay away from chicken. Ha! Thanks for making me happy always.

Last Friday, in the Bible study group about Revelation, my Lord J challenges me to race with horses when I’m tired racing with people. This morning He brings me back to church. He encourages me never giving up. I’m so thankful He’s always willing to show me His will and blessings.

I love you all.
Goodnite!

好友寫了這樣一篇文章：愛蓮．愛自在花園: 不自願惡女

相比她，我真的很軟弱，我的眼淚總是往外流。氣可以吞，淚卻忍不住一顆一顆的掉。

眼淚掉下時，我還是在罵，罵的總是對事不對人，卻始終忍不住會掉眼淚。

軟弱得連半點「強氣」也欠奉。

想起另一位好友，就像個憤怒青年，要上街、要寫意見書、跟朋友討論時事政治民生經濟。他所關心的題目我也感興趣，只是沒有甚麼特別話要說，總覺得自己認識得不夠，也不曾下苦功去分析研究，看書看網站看報章雜誌也只為滿足小小好奇心。

但，我跟平凡人一樣，有著自己的 untouchable button。

那是我所認定的召命，我會竭盡全力去回應。在這範籌內，容不得等閒人仕動我絲毫。

當我聲淚俱下時，絕對不代表我軟弱；反之，我將會付上畢生的勇氣，堅持我的召命。

我，是真正的惡女。