Dream a little dream

趕完了錄音和剪輯，上週終於入紙申請十天年假。

2005/4/18 入職這公司，對上一次取用大假是今年年初往紐西蘭的短宣旅程，2006/4/18 回港，剛好是一年。這次的年假（連超時補假）比較短，將會於 2006/10/18 完結，距離上次休息已是半年。

彷彿我常常跟 18 結緣，生日的日子、住所的樓層……

這半年來不斷的工作，很多個週末週日也在工作中渡過，在平日也不太敢取用補假，因為一直在趕錄音計劃。所以這次假期伊始，我花上三天像貓般睡呀睡呀睡，才覺得稍微回電，不像早陣子般睡眠失調。

週一跟化粧導師老朋友吃午飯，她帶來了我堂姐的婚宴照片，我才知道她為我化的粧很適合拍照。晚上朋友又帶我吃美味晚餐。

在家執拾了數天，週五我又再出動，跟密友到中環的 Flying Pan 吃 noon breakfast；下午遠征海怡工貿，在 Max Mara 和 Tequila Kola 流連忘返；黑麥晚餐還可更好；秘密購物行動神秘刺激；夜探蘭桂坊……勁呀～

今天做乖乖女，陪媽媽買太極刀吃刀削麵，閒逛超紙市場也是美好的節目。
明天返教會崇拜後跟爸媽北上，媽媽說想我散散心，我想也是。

剩餘的三天假期，希望不需要處理公司的事，繼續休息充電。
這是卑微的我小小的夢想。

註：是啊，貓睡的時間應該比豬甚至樹熊還長，只少我家的兩頭貓是這樣。

從紐西蘭回港後，身體和精神一直都很差，特別是吃了十多天中藥，常常感到四肢無力，像在病與未病之間。還要每天的吃藥，直至病情改善，也許是兩個月，也許是兩年。我的天空很灰白。
 
晚上，感到悶熱。工作未畢卻已夜半，我的貓兒佔了我的沙發床，睡意正濃。慢慢的，把藥吃完，便倒坐在貓兒旁邊。左邊是三筒，右邊是 Toffee。貓囡囡三筒用盡一切方法讓我知道她是如何的喜歡跟我在一起，貓媽媽 Toffee 只是很酷的睡在一旁，一聲不響的望著我和三筒。也許，她們勇敢的表達愛和喜惡，是我應該學習的地方。她們讓我感到自己與她們之間的牽繫，我對她們又是如何的重要。她們躺在我的床上，那種自在滿足和安全感，我是實實在在的感受到。

我在想，除了我的貓兒，還有誰有著一樣的感覺呢？
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這夜，吹著秋風。
貓兒坐在露台乘涼。

阿華田在地上滾動身體，卻跟我玩躲貓貓。
三筒靜靜伏在窗沿，我，禁不住要走上前，抱抱她。

她很輕柔的讓我抱著，我伏在她背上。
當我感到她傳來的體溫，我的眼眶濕了。

原來，能觸摸得到溫暖的你，是那麼的重要。

我經歷了最壞的一個除夕夜。

是工作合約的最後一天。
沒有人告訴我不被續約。
薪金和補水沒有拿到。
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I come across problems in piano lesson.

One of those is “Pressing a key should be an easy thing!”

Is it?

My teacher says yes, and my body says no.

My brain understands all his words, but my body refuses to follow.

It’s just like programmed in my brain decades ago.

The second is “The way I play is too mechanical… without emotion.”
Ahh… he’s good in observation.

Just too silent when I hear his words… I can hardly respond…
But I can’t hide from him. I admit, the day I decide to take piano lessons, I’ve enough preparation that in someday I’ll come across this problem.

Just never thought this would be in the 4th lesson.

And yes, it’ll never be wrong of having emotion as a human being.

Talking with a friend at night. I’ve spent hours digging in the issue when I’m on the way home. I try to describe that complicated scenario I’m facing. Then she says, “it can be an easy thing to solve: just out it into God’s hands, then don’t worry, but just trust God.”

Thank God that I haven’t started thinking of the solution. But You have given me the solution directly. It’s just that simple! Fingers down the keys with the help of gravity!!

Introduce to you kitten “Ah Gill”. He’s kept by a studio I maintained. “Ah Gill” is a girl name, since his masters don’t know he’s a boy!

Spymac is having upgrade today (?), so I can’t access part of the functions, including my blog page. I’m quite nervous when I load the blog page unsuccessfully, and see there’re 0 entry from the Spymac Tools. I just start blogging days ago, but I really enjoy writing in such style. Comparing to the online diary I used to write, the passage size is cut drastically. I try taking snapshots in daily life, and write concisely. I’m much relaxed to write shorter passage. I don’t need to spend time to plan the message flow and style of writing. I just “write” from my heart.

I believe it could be another stage of writing training to me. Other than writing short and precise, I write in English only. It’s not an easy task in this International website. I write in Chinese mainly in my online diary, since most of my friends there write and read Chinese more often, while some of those will skip all my English entries. I feel uneasy to write English entries there, coz it seems I’m ignoring my friends’ preferences. I’m glad that I don’t have these problems here. And I intentionally keep this blog as low profile as I could… to maintain a personal / private atmosphere for me to write more.

Yes… I enjoy going into the cave for awhile… sometimes…

Blog everyday… would be a good activity to me!

Introducing my lovely cat Toffee to you! She loves to sleep by my side every night. This picture is a bit weird… she’s much beautiful… however I had never seen her like this, I would like to share with you. Later on I’ll post some normal photo of Toffee here. Enjoy!

My cats love to enlarge their boundaries all the time. They lay on the floor, observe for a long while. And take action!

Yesterday night, I came home in blue. Sitting in front of the web, striking key following key. My lovely kitten was sleeping on my sofa bed.

Happy birthday, my sweetie Sam Tung & Ovaltine!

The lovely cat sitting on the chair is a gift from a friend… he’s in bad bad mood too… hope he’ll get well soon.