Posts Tagged ‘life’

Steamed Milk @ 22:46

So dark inside

Please forgive me. I’m too tired to work, to write, and to think.

Even though I’ve chopped my time schedule into tiny pieces, I won’t have the ability to satisfy all parties’ wants. Dare not to ask for “no blaming”, I just hope I can get the tasks done.

It was just another terrible night. I took shower immediately when I was back to home, then rushed out again to finish another task. It just took me 5 minutes, and it sounds stupid to get on a bus and head back to home. So, I stayed in the streets, blocks following blocks.

Forgive me. In such horrible downside in my life, I really need some Starbucks.

I have my tall steamed skim milk with hazelnut syrup @ 22:46.

Buddies, forgive me if I call / SMS too much. Those were moments I need you so much, much more than you can imagine. Not far from now, I’ll start begging for your hugs and comfort. If the time comes, please do me a favour, pad my forehead, hug me gently, and tell me it will be okay.

Forgive me, I am tired.
Please shut me down.


Life’s Grade

Category Grade
Love A
Friends and Family B
Body A
Mind B
Finance / Career B
Your Life’s Average Grade: B
‘What is your Life Grade?’ at









Being blank


H 昨天說很久沒看到我的文章,我告訴她,現在的生活很空白。


有幾件事我想做的:做 gym、做好公司的事、繼續看醫生吃藥賺錢交醫藥費、繼續疼我心頭的幾塊肉。


朋友借我的,是 Hugh Grant 的 “About A Boy”。他在故事裏,不用打工,只靠老父唯一 all-time hit 的版權費過充裕的日子。可幸的是他漸漸發現自己的生活很填塞卻空白,it’s just meaningless。往昔的他,生活哲學是 man is an island;那個闖進他孤島的小孩,卻讓他知道 no men is an island, and we all need backup。兩個人一起生活還未夠,我們需要更多的 backup,無論是家人、同事、朋友。第三個聖誕節,他邀請朋友們到他家慶祝聖誕節。

我也搞了個小型派對,29 + 1,因為 no men is an island,特別在生活空白的日子。


That’s life

A family comes back to Hong Kong for two weeks, and I’ve spent some days with them, eating out, shopping, babysitting, and most importantly, chatting. I’m glad that we make good friends offline. We share quite a few important moments of life together. Thanks for your love and care, and hope to see you very soon. I love you all!

Having dinner with birthday girl tonight. I’m glad that she sounds happy when she receives my phone call, and I know she has great time with her ex-colleague in the afternoon. We have a great dinner in a smoky restaurant (we can be happy even the environment is that bad, it’s a matter of choice). We talk about jobs, career, food and health. I’m sorry that I can’t say “Happy Birthday”, because I’m a bit lost, after seeing doctor today. We’re all aging. Anyway, my dear friend, all the best everyday in your wonderful life! Got that job and seize for better life in Jesus!!!

Chatting with a friend tonight, about my cat and his dog, about aging, about death. We live under different clocks, facing similar scenarios. We stock stuff in our houses throughout lives. We got problems in throwing junk away. It’s another matter of choice, to buy new things and to throw away old stuff. We got to spend hours in picking “valuable” things from junk hills. But at last, they’re mostly left untouched for another decade. What are the things / people / stories / memories / emotions we’re trying to grasp firmly in hand? Would it be a lost giving them up? We’re fear of changes. My way of facing fear is to admit the fact, and try tiny step of changes. I’m afraid my cats are all leaving me someday in my life. So, I start to adapt to the foreseeable ending. Someday, one day, they’ll leave me alone. So what can I do?

Life, without rehearsal, without replay, you’ve got only “take one” for every seconds.

How are you going to live it out?


Crème Brûlée Latte


探戈課後,走在蘭桂坊,男男女女在享受他們的快樂時光,而我,不怎快樂,甚至有點失落。想起那法式甜品的窩心感覺,也許能填內心的空洞感。便獨個兒走進那熟悉的咖啡店,要了一客菠菜芝士批,還有一杯 Grande Crème Brûlée Latte。

這個晚上,心裏容不下 Gingerbread Man。

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